research

Somtimes it seems like what i'm doing is such a waste of time, and in these moments, it's hard for me to get motivated. then i see myself in the future, perhaps on my death bed, thinking back on my life, wishing that i hadn't spent so much time doing this, and i had spent more time doing that. in life though, there are times we have to do things we don't like for whatever reason. and really, if we only did what we liked, how would we know we liked it?

i look at life this way: everything we do, everywhere we go, everyone we meet - it's all research.

i read this interview once... the journalist asked an author: what would you say to yourself if you could go back in time 20 years and if you saw yourself hanging out in bars, drinking and smoking? the author responded, "i'd say get off your ass you have work to do", then he said "but the 'me' from 20 years ago would say 'shut up old man, this is RESEARCH'".

so it's all research. the good times and the bad. the good events and the bad. the good people and the bad.

and in many ways, it is the bad times, the bad events, the bad people - and how we handle these - that truly define us.

it's midnight again. saturday night. and i've got the headphones one. when i started this post, i was listening to a cover of a neil young song: everybody knows this is nowhere.

now, as i end this post, i'm listening to a song by a guy named david gray. the song is called 'the one i love'. it's not a cover version.

good night