just in case...

i dreamed i saw your name, and i wondered what i should do. should i look for you? should i ignore you? i was confused; i wanted to walk away because i didn't know what to say. you came after me, smiled and assured me everything was alright, but i knew it wasn't the same and never would be. when you left that time, i walked away and i felt so cold. the coldness stayed with me the rest of the day, and through the night as i stared at the light from the streetlight peaking through a crack in the curtains and shining on the ceiling above me. i needed to define this moment, but i didn't know how. i got up out of bed that night, after midnight some time. i went out back and lied down on the grass. i wanted to look up at the stars but it was a cloudy evening. i still felt so cold. i have no recollection of the next day or the weeks that followed. i thought about time and how it doesn't heal all wounds. no, sometimes time just beats you with a stick and brainwashes you...