how much do we really know?

isn't this always the case? you're out in the car, or line at the grocery store, or in some other place where you can't write your ideas down.

i have these profound thoughts at inopportune times, then when i sit down to type or write, those ideas are gone, hiding in the deep corners of my brain.

so in the absence of such thoughts, i'll resort to writing about my day(s). last night i played hockey at 11pm. we usually play until 11:50, but there was no one on after us, so we kept playing until they kicked us off the ice. they never did, and i get the feeling that we could have played until 7am this morning if we felt like staying. we packed it in around 12:30am this morning. and yes, i'm recovering; the welt isn't as bad as i thought it would be (the 1am ice pack helped!).

when i look around me, i see all sorts of motivated people. people who are so driven in their choice of profession. i wonder where they get this passion. they must find something they like and the passion happens naturally. i don't dislike my chosen profession , but i am getting the feeling that "not disliking" something isn't the same as loving it.

it seems we all seek things to be passionate about; things that make us feel. whether it's another person, or a poem or book, or music, or a movie, or something as simple as the wind in the trees, or a rainbow. I think we learn at an early age to turn off these emotions (i did anyway). and then we (i) spend the rest of our life trying to make up for lost time. for me, it's the music. and some movies. and certain people. and some books and poems. and rainbows, clouds, wind in the trees...

... and a smile.

you (i) never know when it's going to hit - this emotion. i see it like water held behind a dam, which has been built and strengthened through decades of practice. once in a while, i sense a leak in the dam; just a small leak, a dribble. then the mechanisms kick in and the leak is plugged once again. until next time, whenever that may be.

i leave you with the ellipsis; a continuation - a symbol to tell you to stay tuned...