four decades

or two score, or 40 years...

so this friday, i hit the milestone birthday of 40. all along i've been thinking that it's no big deal, it's just another number. but i think i've been in denial. it doesn't seem like that long ago when i turned 30, but i don't recall much about being 20 or 10...

so yeah, i'm getting older, there's no arguing that. but we all are. turning 40 is just another reminder of this. 40 is the age i remember my dad being, not that long ago, it seems. he turns 70 this year.

at 40, am i supposed to have my career and job all figured out?
am i supposed to have a 'retirement plan'?
am i supposed to be mature?
am i supposed to stop being a kid?
am i supposed to be responsible?

if so, i'm still waiting...

i've read that 40 is the old age of youth, while 50 is the youth of old age.

but yeah, it's just a number...