just in case...

i dreamed i saw your name, and i wondered what i should do. should i look for you? should i ignore you? i was confused; i wanted to walk away because i didn't know what to say. you came after me, smiled and assured me everything was alright, but i knew it wasn't the same and never would be. when you left that time, i walked away and i felt so cold. the coldness stayed with me the rest of the day, and through the night as i stared at the light from the streetlight peaking through a crack in the curtains and shining on the ceiling above me. i needed to define this moment, but i didn't know how. i got up out of bed that night, after midnight some time. i went out back and lied down on the grass. i wanted to look up at the stars but it was a cloudy evening. i still felt so cold. i have no recollection of the next day or the weeks that followed. i thought about time and how it doesn't heal all wounds. no, sometimes time just beats you with a stick and brainwashes you...

tag, i'm it! two times!

i've been tagged, first by beautiflntmr, who asked me to list 5 weird things about myself, and also by zeroreverb7, who asked me to write 5 wonderful things about myself.

there may or may not be overlap between these 2 lists!

OK, 5 weird things about myself:
(1) I don't drink
(2) I don't eat cow, pig or fowl
(3) I only work 4 days a week
(4) I write daily in my hand-written journal
(5) I used to believe it was every kid's right to play in the NHL for a team of his choice.

Note: for (1) and (2) above, if you knew my family, you'd understand why this is weird.

5 wonderful things about myself:
(1) I only work 4 days a week
(2) I write daily in my hand-written journal
(3) I am sensitive and kind-hearted
(4) I am open minded
(5) I read a lot

So there you go. I'd like to tag others. For starters, I'll tag alice, binsk, lessthan3, kels (to get her back blogging), spiltsville, sunnydayz

wherever you go, please take me with you

i know i listen to a lot more music since i got all my tunes organized in itunes for my ipod. and i've been thinking a lot about music and its role in my life. it's like a constant friend - i take it everywhere with me and as long as i have the music with me, i am never alone. right now, i am listening to some beatles tunes. let me take you down, cause i'm going to strawberry fields/nothing is real/and nothing to get hung about.

it's been a bizarre winter. cold, snow, warm, rain. make up your mind, winter.

i'm trying to get organized. call it a new year's resolution if you like. but i am beginning to see the top of my desk again.

i've been accumulating bootlegs of rare live music. i don't think this is illegal, because the guy i'm getting it from has contacted the musician directly, and he has approved it.

living is easy with eyes closed. misunderstanding all you see.

there's a federal election coming up. it looks like bush-light is in the lead. i can't imagine our country being run by this guy.

what's that called when people suffer from lack of sunlight in the winter months? seasonal something disorder? maybe that's what i have. i need a nap, though it's after midnight, and maybe it's just sleep i need.

my thoughts are as random as this post.....